Saturday, January 14, 2017

full moon jan 2017


the full moon layered in clouds of spring heat in mid-january...

howl...

the past month was clutter watching, was clutter plotting, was shelving it for later, when i could get it just right, when everything would be perfect, when i could get someone i knew to come through and motivate me to do it, to make the move to move things...feeling daunted by the task of going through it all, of having to explain, of where to place things...of things i could sell to raise money for the clinic...of placing it on display at the yoga-studio slash clinic...

the fantasies keep from doing it...how about a store on ebay? possibly...but in the meantime? there are things i could dispose, immediately...hold a bonfire...burn like wood...

boxes, pills, books, electronics...let go...what would motivate? putting a date, a time, a circumstance...

this month...i revisit getting messy, to let go of perfectionism...i embrace leaping into a handstand without a wall, to get dirty, to learn to fall, to be okay with falling, putting teas together and trying them out, putting ads to serve people with this medicine, getting a spot...trying...moving forward with the larger year intention of one thing at a time....of last months intention of decluttering to make space...trying and being okay with the fall...

what does it mean to let go of perfectionism? it means that it's okay for me to let go of stuff, to let go of old journals and clothes and make gifts and put an online store and see what happens...it may mean that i do it in person vs online, it may mean i do it all online...it means i get messy, i try...